Are You An Expert? The day I realized how ignorant I was

Have you ever met an expert?

Like the person who looses a few pounds and now they are an expert on weight loss. Or the person who gets their child to sleep all night, in their own bed, and they are quick to share their parenting expertise.

In college I remember studying the bible and learning so much, that I thought I was an expert. My head began to swell, and it wasn’t too long before I got a few bible accounts mixed up that my bubble was popped — down I came.

Durning that time though I was going to a bible study and there was a guy there who was mentally disabled by the name of Barry. In my arrogance I didn’t regard anything he had to say (I know, I was a jerk).

Each week Barry would say something that I usually blew off, but one night in particular Barry said something that shook me to the core. I cannot begin to count the number of times I’ve recalled his words. His words have been a helpful reminder that being an expert is something I will never be, and frankly don’t want to be.

He said, “When we think we know God, that’s when we need to get to know God.”

What this young man knew, that I the expert didn’t, was how ignorant I really was.

At that point in my life I had my own assumptions and beliefs about God’s nature and character that were anything but accurate. I read the bible daily, I memorized scriptures and yet my beliefs about God were jaded and construed.

I might have knew the bible but I didn’t know God’s heart.

I believed I had to earn God’s love. I saw myself as a servant but never His friend. I believed I was His child, but wasn’t sure if He was proud of that. I believed that God had favorites and I wasn’t one of them. I believed I had to earn righteousness. I didn’t believe that he actually wanted to talk to me, I just believed he tolerated me…just to name a few.

But that night after bible study I went home and I prayed this simple prayer, “God, if there is anything that I have believed about you that is inaccurate, show me. Teach me who you are. I want to get to know you.”

And over the next 14 years God has tore down lie after lie, broken chain after chain leading me into freedom. He has healed countless wounds and restored the parts of my heart and soul that Satan tried to destroy.

I learned that God sees the gold in us. He sees us for who we are going to be and calls out our destiny and purpose. I learned that more than anything, He want’s us to encounter and receive His love.

I haven’t “arrived” and no I’m not an expert, like I said I don’t want to be. I just know that I’ve only scratched the surface of His goodness, His faithfulness, His kindness, His power, His grace, His love, His presence…I’ve only just begun getting to know Him.

So I wonder, what do you know about God? Are there any assumptions you’ve made about Him that aren’t accurate? Are there any conclusions you’ve made about His nature or His heart because of your circumstances? Would you be willing to ask Him, and let Him tell you who He is, and what you mean to Him?

In the words of Barry I want to encourage you with, “When you think you know God, that’s when you need to get to know God.”

Be Blessed ~

Jessica

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  1. This is so refreshing! I feel like it gives me hope to know that I haven’t plumbed the depths of God’s love and mystery. There’s so much more to discover. Love it!

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