I remember my heart beginning to race as anxious thoughts began to swirl around in my mind the day we found out the sex of our second child. I eagerly awaited that appointment for months and now the day had arrived. The sonogram tech began her exam and soon we found out that we were having a little girl, my husband and I were so surprised and now we were waiting for the sonogram tech to finish up her exam. A moment later the tech got really quiet and her silence began to unnerve me. She got up and left the room. Shortly after our doctor came in and shared that she had found a spot on my daughters heart that she was not certain about, we would need to go to a specialist for further examinations. My heart sank.
One of the most frequent prayer request of a parent is for their children to be healthy. Parents tend to have the perspective that as long as their kids are healthy everything is right with the world. Once you hear a report that there could be something wrong, you immediately step into the arena of battling fear and anxiety. My husband and I had an appointment set up a month later to see a specialist. A month was too long in my mind to wait for a result and I wanted to find a specialist who could help us out immediately! Despite our striving to find a doctor who fit our timeline we were forced to wait a month.
I remember that month feeling like an eternity. We had no control and were forced to trust God and His plans. In Matthew 14 we read about Jesus walking on the water in the middle of a storm while his disciples are terror stricken sitting in a boat being beaten up by the storm. The disciples see Jesus and think He is a ghost so Jesus tells them, “Be brave and don’t be afraid. I am here!” Peter then shouts out to Jesus, “Lord, if it’s really you, then have me join you on the water!” Jesus replies with “Come and join me.” Then Peter takes a step of faith and begins to walk on the water towards Jesus! It’s a miracle! Yet in the midst of the miracle Peter realizes how high the waves are and gets frightened and starts to sink. “Save me Lord!” he cries out. Jesus stretches out His hand and lifts Peter up and says, “What little faith you have! Why would you let doubt win?”
We all have seasons when we are going through storms. Sometimes life just punches you in the gut and you wonder if you will be able to fight your way to victory. Fear of the unknown, anxiety and doubt will throw you around like a ship being tossed at sea. Yet in the midst of the storm Jesus is there. The storm is not effecting Him, He is walking on the water. Jesus tells you and me, “Be brave and don’t be afraid. I am here!” Jesus knows the storm you are in, He has not forgotten about you. The reality is He is Immanuel, God with us. He has not left you to ride out the storm but to empower you to walk on it.
You and I have a choice though, we can either stay in the boat and continue to get tossed around and beaten up by the storm or we can join Jesus out on the water. In the presence of Jesus is peace. But it is the steps of faith to get out of the boat and walk to Jesus which might be the hardest for some of us. The waves of fear of a bad report, or the waves of disaster, or the waves of failure seem to be to bigger than us. If we fix our eyes on the waves we will sink.
During that month of waiting there were days that I struggled with sinking. The fear of the worst case scenario would cripple me. However, during that time our brothers and sisters in Christ began to pray for us. They lifted us up and encouraged us through the storm. They were not going to let us fix our eyes on the waves, instead they helped us focus on Jesus and knowing that He was with us and He was in control. By the time we entered into the specialist office a month later, my husband and I knew that our daughter was going to be just fine and that spot on her heart was God’s, we were walking with Jesus on the water. After the specialist examined me he said, “I don’t see any spot. Your daughter is going to be just fine.” Oh God is so good!
Whatever the storm is you are facing today, know that God is with you. Don’t let doubt win. Keep your eyes fixed on the perfecter of you faith and trust that His ways are better than your ways. Let Jesus help you walk on top of the storm.