I was a very active little girl, I would describe myself as a tomboy growing up. I loved climbing up trees, playing in the mud, trying to shoot turtles in our stock tank, climbing on hay bales, playing softball and basketball and exploring on our family property. I loved being outside!
Due to my adventurous personality I ended up with a lot of scars. I have scars from jumping off of concrete tables and not completely clearing the edge and cutting my leg up. I have scars from running past mesquite trees and getting hit by their thorns. I have one large scar on my leg from stepping into a buried pipe while running to catch a fly ball during a softball game. A scar on my thumb for slamming my finger in a car door and then many more from me just being so rough. Yes, they all hurt at the time and regardless of the vitamin E oil I have put on them, they are still there. I will admit that not all scars are bad. For example the largest scar on my body was from a surgery that brought my son into this world. I would not trade that scar for the world. You know, I have never tried getting that scar to fade, I am proud of that scar.
So you may be wondering why I am going on and on about scars. This morning I was working on chapter 2 of my book and there is a portion I am writing about scars. You know your body puts down scar tissue as a way for your body to heal itself after an injury or surgery. Scars can be different depending on the injury itself, the location and the size and depth of the injury. Although some of the scars do fade they do not fully go away. Scars have a way of still effecting us after they injury has healed. Scar tissue binds up and ties down tissue that needs to move freely. They can effect our maneuverability, they may cause discomfort, they may compress nerves and blood flow, they also can cause numbness as well as the skin being weaker.
As I was reading about scars and thinking about my own personal scars I ended up moving from my outward scars to the scars that are internally. I am not talking about scars from an internal surgery or injury, I am talking about the scars caused by emotional injuries. The ones that from first glance no one can see but after people have spent anytime with each other they begin to see these scars in a persons actions or their conversations.
We all have scars of some kind. Maybe you were told at some point that you were not smart enough. Or you were told that you were too fat or not pretty enough. You might have been told that you were a failure or that you would never be good enough. Some have scars from abuse of some kind while others have scars from neglect. Some have scars from self inflicting injuries. The point is, we all have scars.
Today while I was writing I was thinking about my scars but in particular the scars that I have inflicted upon myself. The pain I went through because of poor choices. When you have those types of scars the effects of scars are the same outwardly as they are inwardly. For a while I let my emotional scars keep me from moving into the things God had called me to. I let my scars keep me from experiencing in depth relationships. I let my scars keep me numb towards any dreams I may have had when I was younger. I have let those scars effect my marriage. Scars are the evidence of a hurt. When I got hurt I felt like my heart was weak. I did’t want to subject myself to hurting like that ever again so I had some scar tissue built up within me.
During this time I was wanting to grow in my relationship with God and wanting anything that was hindering me from growing to be removed. I was just too stubborn to acknowledge that the thing that was hindering my relationship with God were these scars on my heart. My heart was bound up and unable to love and trust and hope like it was meant to do. I hated feeling this way, something had to change.
The wonderful thing about God is He heals! Where the scars on the outside of my body will always be there, God can remove the scars from my past that were keeping me bound up. I love the promise of Psalms 147:3, Ezekiel 36:26 and Isaiah 61:1
Psalm 147:3 “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”
Ezekiel 36:26 “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”
Isaiah 61:1 “The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners,”
God knows how each of us have been wounded. He has not overlooked you and the scars you may be carrying that keep you bound up. Don’t miss out on the healing and restoration God has for you. Bring those scars to Him and let Him take care of the healing. Some of your scars may take a short period of time to get over, some may take years. No matter the time frame, daily come to Him and open up your heart to Him and let God do the healing. Some days are easier than others, but press through and bring that hurt to Him!