Have you ever had those weeks that you are just completely exhausted? You know, the ones you not only are physically wore out, but also spiritually and emotionally wore out.
This week has been one of those weeks for me. Thursday morning I had a hard time rolling out of bed — and it was not just a physical exhaustion. I woke up feeling heavy and burdened, emotionally and spiritually.
I couldn’t just get myself into a better mood, something deeper was bothering me. As I started to pray and focus on entering into the presence of the Lord, I felt like there was a block. I asked God to show me what the block was — he gave me Psalms 32:8-9
I will stay close to you, instructing and guiding you along the pathway for your life. I will advise you along the way, and lead you forth with my eyes as your guide. So don’t make it difficult, don’t be stubborn… (The Passion Translation)
I had made things difficult. I had picked up and carried a burden, a good legitimate burden, without even asking if that was a burden He intended for me to carry, then tried to carry it with my own strength!
God has you and I on a specific journey. Your journey looks different from my journey. In the verse above notice how God keeps saying you and your, he didn’t say our, their or everyone. No, each persons journey and race is individually made just for them.
I believe that we will begin to make our own journey difficult the minute we try to walk out another persons journey or pick up and carry someone else’s burden. Yes, we should support, encourage and love others, but we are not made to be the ones doing the carrying, that’s God’s job.
What’s crazy, is how easily we can pick up and begin to carry another persons burden without even knowing it. It’s so subtle, yet it has a root in being self-sufficient and self-dependent. For me it was an opportunity to help and I figured it was a no brainer, I had the resources and they had the need. The problem was I acted out of my own self-sufficiency, I ran ahead of God and acted out of my own strength. Carrying this burden was a pride issue for me. I was a “big girl” and I could handle it…
You see there are a lot of ways that God will call us to love on others and help others, but he needs to be the source of the love and the provision, you and I are to just be the vessel he flows thru. When we run ahead of him, we walk away from our source and supply and start tapping into a self-sufficient source that will inevitably run dry.
So today if you find yourself exhausted, weary and burned out, go to God, give him the burden you have been trying to carry. Own up to any pride, fear or worry, and then watch and wait for the floodgates to open. Peace, rest, joy,strength and renewal will come!
Until next time, be blessed!
P.S. I am attaching one of the worship songs I enjoy listening to, when I need to remember who and where my source of strength, peace and joy comes from.